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I am Brianna and I would like to share with you my story. Today is the first day I have been on this sight, and I have not shared my story with many people. I would like to tell you about how I was molested, depressed and SI. Hi, I am Brianna and I would like to tell you my story.
I have grown up in a Christian home. I always thought that that was supposed to mean I was supposed to be perfect.
When I was five I was molested by my best friends brother. He molested me until I was 11 years old. I knew deep inside that what he was doing was not right, but I couldn\'t stop him. He was 6 years older than me, and his family and my family were very very close. I didn\'t tell anyone about it for years. I am 18 now, and just this year I told my brother about it. For years I beat myself up for it. I blamed myself for what he had done to me. I thought that I should have stopped him, I shouldn\'t have even let it start. I thought that everything he had done to me was my fault. I had suicidal thoughts for years. A few times I tried to kill myself. I started reading my bible and worked at a christian camp for a summer a couple of years ago. Which helped me deal with the shame of being molested alot.

Just recently I have been suffering with depression again. I slipped away last year and started hanging around with the wrong group of friends. I drank a lot, smoked a lot of pot, and skipped a lot of school. In a matter of seconds I felt like I had lost everything. I started losing friends, and gaining \"friends\" who talked about me all the time. I started becoming very angry and negative. Lately I have been feeling very worthless, not cared about, and overwhelmed. Things with friends aren\'t going well, life at home is tough, school is hard. About a month ago I started cutting. Only two nights ago I told my brother about it. He helped me a lot. He recommended I look at this sight and read other people\'s stories and it showed me that I am not the only one who is suffering.

By reading comments and other people\'s stories I can see that God really is love. That he is not the one that is making me feel bad, but he is the one who is there making me feel happy.
I now know that help is on the way, that God is here for me, I just need to look to him.

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Marty said:

Bri,
It is good to hear your story. I believe that freedom begins when our stories are told. Know that God is with you and that He deeply loves you.

June 18, 2009

Haleigh said:

Bri, That took a lot of guts to confess.I myself was molested when i was younger and at age 11, did it then stop. I'm only 14, but I still haven't the courage to say anything, cause the boy who did molest me is a son of a close family friend. After reading this story, I am aware it's a hard thing to do, but the right thing.
Thanks for sharing
Lots of good your way,
Haleigh.

June 29, 2009

Meg_Pieroway said:

Bri, you are so brave to share your story and it is so encouraging for others who have been through similar situations. You're gonna make it girl! I have found in my own experience that listening to christian music can make a huge difference, I know some of some awesome chritian artists that I think you would love, email me at This e-mail address is being protected from spam bots, you need JavaScript enabled to view it if you're interested in some recommendations