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well my story is super long but it begins when i was a baby about six months old i was taken away from my parents by social services and i apparently hadn't been fed for quite some time(sorry for the spelling errors) my auntie(mom) and grandma(granny) were up with me all night feeding me one ounce of milk every half an hour... so yeah other than that i've been bullied all through elementry had five losses in 2007 and lost my Dad about five years ago on new years eve(all thanks to drugs and alchohol)
Hello my name is Angell i'm a fifteen year old female and i live in Canada.
Ok so as you've heard I live with my aunt and stepdad jim whom i call mom and well jimmy. This past year i've lost my Dog, my Grandma(no not granny thank goodness) then exactly a month later i lost my grandpa(weird huh?) around last december(i think) i lost my biological mom(although i've only remember seeing her a few times in my life) (and that didn't effect me that much yet) then after that my sister was living with me and mom and jim i grew really close to their dog riley whom was a rottiecross pit ull who was the biggest suck you would've ever met... and he died during this summer while i was in pg. abd the worst lost i've had was my dad which i still has scars from five years ago then all this happend to pop in! all in one year? then probably losinh my bestfriend jenna my dog then my grandma then my other best friend riley and my grandpa didn't sink in until around the beggining of september but losing my mom the worst part about that was i nevere really got to learn about her that much and what i did learn i later figured out was lies because thats what i was told . in december me and my granny and sister went to princegeorge to go see my "mom" in the hospital her body finally shut down and she passed away two days after i had visited her, oh and i forgot to mention that i have a sister who is now 21 she lives in 100 mile house with my "aunt" she rean away when she was i think 14 which kind of sucked i don't really keep in touch in fact i kind of avoid it!!(sorry if i confuse you in all of this) and in elementy i was bullied cause i wasn't pretty(and in my opinion im still not) so i got braces and my teethe were a bit better(i had buckteethe) thats about when i started cutting. i still do to this day and it might even be worse but its a working progress and throught it all their were some good stuff i now attend youth and church on a regular basis. What brought me closer to God was Yc passion Alberta 2oo8!! it was so amazing i couldn't beleive it! thats were i met my guardian angel except in human form her name is Kathy Merta she is one of my friends mom i opend up to her at yc and confessed of my cutting. since then life has moved a little but i feel all me emotions are clogged up from holdinh them in(which i still do) and their reallly slowly starting to come out. im just glad god has awnsered my prayers cause one day i told him i was soo tired of being sad and no one noticing it.(i will be amazed if you read this far if so thank you for listening) and then pop thats when Ksthy came in my life and put me under her wing although i admit i still cry myself to sleep but thats a much harder working progress. well its kiknd of out of order but that is my story (and I know it tells me to check my spelling but sorry it's to long for me to check)
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haha hi wes ) so yeah i am done cutting! and am prepared for anything (i think) that is coming in my future it feels good to be a christian