Getting into self harm may seem like the only option at some points, but it never is. And I've learned that now. "just once,just once" you say to yourself, but in reality, those scars are likely to be there for the rest of your life. Its a painful reminder to me every day, and there's nothing I can do about it now. When I struggled with SI , it was because I felt there wasn't much to live for, but it wasn't that there wasn't much to live for, it was that I was blind to all the good in my life.